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| Boooo. |
[Nov. 25th, 2006|09:03 am] |
If it's not the fact I'm "just a friend", they're already freaking taken.
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| Where from here? |
[Sep. 13th, 2006|08:58 am] |
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After three and a half years, we finally got together in person and hung out. We both had a great time, from what I could tell. I was more comfortable, more myself around her in her home than I was in my own apartment, or at my job. I guess that's to be expected, having to put up a facade to get by at work or around three roommates. I wasn't even nervous when I got off the plane. Well, no, I was. But it faded the moment I actually saw her. I forgot I was even nervous 5 seconds before I saw her. I dunno. It was wierd.
I really felt like I had a great friend, the entire time. A best friend. I wish we lived near each other so we could do more together.
But part of this visit was discovering if our personalities meshed in person as well as they do online. And if they did, and we both felt it was right, we would make plans and discuss furthering a relationship. Something beyond friendship. So, where do we go from here?
It seems obvious, at first. Bring it up, discuss it, and straighten it out. But it's not that easy. It's not that I have a hard time talking about it or I'm afraid.. it's more that I don't want to add unneeded stress to her already stressful life. Her bad luck with guys comes back to haunt her practically every day with another fellow she has no interest in trying to woo her. And in the times she's so blissfully happy, I just like seeing her that way and it doesn't feel right to bring it up at that point. I guess I'm just waiting for the right time.
The most interesting part of the entire situation is that I am so unbelievable secure and comfortable with her that even if we decided not to further a relationship, I'd be perfectly content. The friendship is amazing, if nothing else. I would like to see it go forward, but... things don't always happen that way, I've learned.
But yeah. I guess now it's just waiting for that moment when it seems okay to bring it up. |
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| Giving Birth |
[Aug. 1st, 2006|08:24 am] |
A List of Reasons not to have a child:
* You're on welfare, or just got off of welfare sometime this year
* You and your spouse do not have stable or full time jobs (depending on spouse's job, you may not need one)
* You don't have a spouse
* You're on a various assortment of pills, ranging from antidepressants to some weight loss pills
* You're not emotionally stable (and if you require pills to be stable, reevaluation is needed before a child is made)
* You're not romantically stable (this is usually determined by how long you last with most significant others and whether or not you're married. If you average 1-2 years before getting bored with your current heart throb, you should not have a child.)
* You're not physically healthy (Pills?)
* You're not financially stable (Full time job, no welfare. If you're on welfare, you might as move to some poor area and have half a dozen kids so social services can take them all to foster homes that can actually care for the child)
Are you considering a child? If so, I beg you to ponder this list and ponder your decision. I'm one of three people that I know (I know a lot of people...) that have parents that have actually been together since they were 18 or so and haven't split up. I'm also one of few people I know that have a stable, fairly functional family. I didn't have to go visit my father on tuesday's, nor did I live a life where I didn't know who my real father was. My parents never asked me to go get their drugs for them and my father worked intense amounts of overtime to keep food on the table. We always had a decent sized living space with enough room for everyone and we always had clothes on our back. My parents were intelligent and emotionally smart people, they knew when not too fight around their kids, and they knew how to raise their kids. They knew how to discipline us and they knew to accept our dream careers, even if music, movie making, and game making aren't traditional.
It saddens me when I consider my friends and how few have had that. It also saddens me that, yes, I've known someone who lived with her parents for her entire life and discovered her father wasn't her real father. I've known more than four people that had to do the "every tuesday, every other weekend" to visit their father, or mother. I've known kids that worked more then their parents did. And made more money, off two or more part time jobs.
So, for the love of God people, don't be selfish. Don't think about the reasons why you WANT a kid. Those reasons don't matter. Really. Think about if the kid will be happy in your life; can you give them shelter, food, an education, emotional support, a stable family life? Can you? If you can't, I beg you reconsider the decision. You do not have children because you want to have children to make yourself happy. You have children to watch and help them grow and to sacrifice a great deal of your life for their well being as they mature and age. Today's world can be rough enough as it is, don't bring the kid into a crappy family life.
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This post has been sparked by a friend. She seems to be trying to have a child. I told her my opinion. As always, I gave her the honest truth - she needs to reconsider. I'm no longer on any of her friend's lists because, another frequent occurance, my honesty was too much. |
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| Nerdcore Hip-hop |
[Jul. 14th, 2006|01:24 pm] |
Ya'll need to look up the following:
Optimus Rhyme
MC Frontalot
This is good stuff to any geeky, nerdular person. It's one of the few brands of hip hop I really enjoy! |
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| E3 |
[May. 14th, 2006|01:02 pm] |
E3 was awesome. I went, I saw, and I played just most of the big things there. Here's a quick review from my perspective and considering what I saw others doing, say, and playing:
PS3 - Not worth it. The line was about 5 minutes long to see it and you didn't really get to play anything but Full Auto 2, and that wasn't even in the Sony Booth. It's gonna be 600 bucks, and that's the toned down "no useful features" system. The actual Ps3's price will be determined by the retailer. Expect an 800 dollar price tag.
Revolution/Wii - Amaaazing. Amaaazing. I can't stress it enough. I played Warioware and Metroid Prime 3 and watched two professional drummers do a demonstration with a drumming game. This is going to be everything Nintendo has hyped it up to be. It plays smoothly, comfortably, and isn't half as awkward as it seems. They're shooting for 150 dollar price tag, so it's half the price of a 360. Even people that don't play video games intensly will enjoy this system, have no doubt.
Top Games There...
Spore - I met Will Wright and he demo'd spore before us. This game is amazing, as well. It comes in second as greatest E3 thing. First as best e3 game, in my book. It really is impressive. He seemlessly zoomed out using his mousewheel from creature level to planet, to star system, to galaxy. He said 400,000 stars, 4-5 planets each. An estimate of 67 years would be required to visit and fully explore and play on every planet.
Assassin's Creed - Didn't see any in game goods, but the preview was hot. Look for it online.
Lord of the Rings Online - I participated in a 4 player instance contest, where you had to get to end of the instance in 30 minutes and you got in the beta. We made it with 5 minutes to spare and got in. The game plays smooth. I can't say it's better than WoW because I got bored with WoW and that opinion would be biased... but it'll definitely be up there, especially since magic isn't useable by the classes. They're sticking as close as possible to Tolkien lore.
WoW - The new race is Draenei. They look cool. Not cool enough for me to play again, but cool.
Huxley, Soul of the Ultimate Nation, Project Wiki - 3 MMOs with drastically different styles. Huxley is an FPS that is tons of fun, played it for about 20 minutes. SUN is similar to guild wars. Project Wiki is... bold and awesome looking. Think Wind Waker MMO.
And that's it. E3 rocked this year. I've already sealed the plan of upgrading my machine to a quad SLI so I can seemlessly zoom spore out, and I'll be preordering my Wii asap. |
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| This day... |
[Feb. 14th, 2006|11:33 pm] |
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I've concluded that I hate it. For 20 years, I've had my hopes that one year, I'd actually spend this day like I'm supposed to. With someone else. This year, I figured I'd be used to it. Maybe I was... until everyone else around me were giving their little chocolates and shit.
Niki bought me some cookies and hershey kisses to cheer me up, and it worked for a short moment. She's still just a friend, and she's still gonna spend her v-day celebration with her boyfriend. As she should. I'm not jealous... if I was jealous, I'd want her as mine, and not as Travis'. No.. I'm envious..
I'm envious of everyone that has another body to lie beside today. You mother fuckers better not take that shit for granted. I'm SO tired of seeing relationships fall apart because one or the other isn't willing to do what they're supposed to. Compromise.
None of them know how lucky they are. |
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| quizzy |
[Jan. 12th, 2006|03:35 pm] |
What Is Your Daemon?
EAGLE or HAWK - your daemon may be some kind of bird of prey. Yours is a strong spirit, and a fierce sense of liberty. You cannot be confined. You may be shrewdly observant, and like to be aware of everything that goes on around you. You will fight fiercely for the things that are most important to you, and you are definitely a force to be reckoned with. Still, you are not vicious by nature and would prefer to be left in peace. You probably value your solitude very highly - not that you don't enjoy company, but sometimes you just need to be alone - otherwise you begin to feel caged in and confined. You might want to take a drive on your own, just to feel the road beneath you, or to sit alone on your balcony, watching the world go by.
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 11th, 2005|07:13 am] |
Society. The media. It just implants things into our heads that aren't true.
Fortunately, I don't watch enough TV to become a brainwashed zombie.
So yar! Build me a robot and buy me a lightsaber. XD |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 3rd, 2005|12:54 pm] |
Applied at blizzard for Quest designer. I meet all the requirements. My resume rocks. Pray.
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| Could this be.. it? |
[Aug. 25th, 2005|07:25 am] |
I've been waiting for that time when everything falls into place. Or starts doing so. Waiting for when I get my due... for when they stop beating down on me... they? Dunno who they are. Just a figment of my imagination. Just the enemy I see whenever someone gets cancer or gives me a crappy job or takes a good job and makes it crappy or screws with my head or whatever.
Could this be it? Let us go over the past.
I dropped out of Full Sail because I lacked funds. I told Travis I'd room with him when graduated. We agreed. Life was okay.
I applied 15 times for the WoW game master job. Never got it. I'm not local. Blizzard only accepts local applications.
I got a job at Morgan's, falling back on my secondary plan - chef. Good job. Decent pay. alright people. Life is good.
Things at Morgan's get shaky. After months of hard work, we're finally to the point where people are gettings nights off, weekends, even... things are okay. Cept Mark will probably quit soon. But things are okay.
Travis has an interview with the makers of Taxi Driver for a designer position. Where? None other than Irvine, California.
Where Blizzard is.
We talk. I'm invited to room if he gets the job. I agree. The doorway to game design may be opened...
I look to the sky and say, "Is this it? Or is this a test? Or both?"
Both...
I have a semi-stable job. No local friends. I live in my parents house. At my job, they rely on me. A lot.
If I move...
I'll live with my best friend in a nice apartment and work wherever I can get a job until I get the job I want. I'll be close to game making oppurtunities. I'll have my own place again.
The down side?
Morgan's gets screwed by losing one of their stronger kitchen workers. Being a small, local restauraunt, that means a lot.
But this is for me. And if Travis gets that job - which I'm sure he will - I'm going. God, damn. I'm going.
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| From VGCats |
[Aug. 12th, 2005|12:05 pm] |
Re: Killer 7
Dear Ms. Vance:
I have just learned facts that indicate the above violent game most likely deserves an “AO” rating rather than the “M” rating which your ESRB has given it.
As you may or may not know, more than forty states have “sexual material harmful to minors” statutes which prohibit the sale of sexually explicit material to anyone under 18 years of age. This hiatus between the “M” (age 17) rating and the statutory criminal standard (age 18) has always posed significant peril to the industry through games that contain sexual material, and it appears that those pigeons may come home to roost in Killer 7. “Hot Coffee” is a fairly recent example of the peril. As to Killer 7, please note:
The following is found in a review of Killer 7 by Matt Casamassina at http://cube.ign.com/articles/630/630908p1.html which contains the following observations at this pro-violent game Internet site:
“…profanity, sex and bloodshed are commonplace… We can't stress it enough: kids should not play Killer 7. Not just because there's an M on the box, but because for once that M really means something. There's much more than blood and guts in the game. Everything from the design of puzzles to the subject matter is designed for older players and it's really that simple…. And there are cinematics that feature full-blown sex sequences…. Killer 7's adult themes, which encapsulate extremely violent, profane and sexual situations, as well as a wide range of issues from terrorism to the sale of children, make the M on the box really mean something.”
Ms. Vance, this game was released on July 7, 2005. It may be that the stir caused by the “Hot Coffee” in Grand Theft Auto: San Andreas distracted all of our attention from Killer 7.
There is no question in my mind that a video game containing “full-blown sex sequences” cannot be rated anything other than “AO” rather than “M.” The reviewer above in fact says that this game’s “M” actually means something, and he says it twice for emphasis.
There are those who would say that people such as I are “prudes” who have no problem with violence but get uptight about sexual content in games. That is a disingenuous charge, and you know why. I have been on national television programs, as early as the week before Columbine, complaining about 13-year-olds being enabled by the ESRB to violent “M” games. But it is your sister organization, the Entertainment Software Association, that is in court right this second in Illinois trying to prevent the extension of the “sex” argument to the “violence” argument. It is your industry, then, that thinks violence is okay for kids but that sex, given state laws already on the books, is not okay. Well, the Killer 7 game underscores the fact that your organization and the industry it fronts for appear to try to get away with anything that is harmful to kids, whether already illegal or not.
What it also means is that if jurors in a criminal prosecution were asked whether Killer 7 contains “sexual material harmful to minors” in violation of statutory standards, then, based upon the above enthusiastic review at IGN.com, the answer to that question would probably be “yes.”
That answer would put the Entertainment Software Rating Board, in my opinion, in the middle of a criminal conspiracy to distribute sexual material harmful to minors in violation of criminal statutes. This is not a situation in which the ESRB has been blind-sided by hidden or embedded content, Ms. Vance. You all have known that the “full-blown sex sequences” are patently present in the game, yet you chose to put an “M” rather than an “AO” rating on it. Big mistake.
If I were you, Ms. Vance, I would immediately ask the makers of this game, and all retailers, to pull it from store shelves. If you don’t, expect for others to use this latest scandal, which I am hereby officially kicking off, to call for a dismantling of the ESRB.
The fox has guarded the chickens long enough. Killer 7 seems to prove it.
Sincerely, Jack Thompson
Copies: Senator Clinton, Senator Lieberman, Senator Brownback, Senator Santorum
Assemblyman Yee
Federal Trade Commission
Congressman Upton
Class action counsel
Media
Others
I'll make an opinion when I have time. |
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| Update, thoughts, feelings, and so forth |
[Aug. 4th, 2005|12:30 am] |
I might be getting a raise soon I think. I've suspicions... the schedule, however, is finally reaching what Blake desires. One night off, one day off plus Sunday for every worker in the kitchen. And it starts next week. Although, I may have TWO nights off next week simply because I'm one of the few that knows morning/lunch Pantry like I know how to count from 1 to 10. (8 does come after 9, right? Or before it?)
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I have to check the hidden schedule. Bob's fired, but doesn't know it yet, so the schedule is tucked away so he doesn't see it and go "I'm not on!".
It's funny, whenever I see Blake's family. In truth, I don't know them that well but his wife and all three kids hug me, say hello, and act like I'm an uncle or brother. It's cool, really. And when I think about it, I'd do anything to protect the lot of them. Including Blake. And to think! There's ANOTHER kid coming, since allison(blake's wife) is pregnant!
Anyone who says Born Again Christain's suck, and any Born Again Christain's that DO suck, need to meet Blake and his family. Some of the best people I've ever met. He's never preached to me, never said God was life, but goes to church every sunday, is a Deacon, and really "practice's what you preach". Though, outside worship, he doesn't really preach. He's also aware, I believe, that I'm not much of a faithful and respects that fully.
Another amusing note on this subject is that Blake gave, some weeks ago, Niki and Will a copy of some self-help book and a bible that had notations explaining different passages. These were gifts he was excited to give them because he knows the two of them have hard times - he didn't, however, give me anything but a smile and pat on the back.
I suppose, in his eyes, I'm doing damn good for myself. :D
My father is doing great. Aside from him being antsy not being able to really do anything outside the house or work for the next couple months, he's been doing great. He's even been nicer, with the exception of my sister (but she whom acts like a slutty bitch deserves such treatment, far as I'm concerned). My mother almost had her sent off to a psych ward, but she's too old now to get checked in without her personal permission which, of course, would be no. Damn 16 year old psycho females! :P
Dating, also, has been peachy. Despite what she says, Amy is a rather ridiculous, fantabulous individual of a unique degree that I have never quite run into before. There's only two other people, both whom live in Florida, that I can honestly sit in silence with and feel comfortable. It's interesting the same happens with Amy. Of course, she's one of the same few people who take my dreams, feeling, and other such things you might find people arch an eyebrow over seriously. It's nice to know that even if my only other dating experience was an immature mess of a disaster of two blind mice moving through a maze with no beginning and no end, I'm able to move on and find something far more mature and *real*.
Of course, the fear of doing something that may repeat such a horrorible tale has caused me to save a certain word until, face to face, I can speak and am truly sure it is felt. For the heart is a tricky puppetmaster, and I shan't let it pull strings so easily.
I've also decided that, since I can't seem to find a true creative vent outside daydreaming (no RP, gaming hasn't quite met up to it; though fun, too few games allow freedom of do-whatever-the-hell-you-want), that I am going to write a book. One might think the intitial topic would be of Valikorlia, but I concluded the legal internet drama this might come with is far from worth it.
I'm going to use something that I, Jonathan, aka, Magnus, did in fact create. Empyria. Although a faction of Valikorlia, I DID construct the blasted country, characters, and history from the water up. And so it shall be, rather than but a state in a world, THE world for my story. Which, in hope, can become a nice RPG and maybe even a cool epic movie.
But baby steps, first! baby steps!
And now, off to make a grand, and most life affecting decision. Do I play the Sims 2, Soldat, WoW, or Fable before I head off to slumber?
Dun dun dun.
(To be continued . . . . . . . ) |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 30th, 2005|09:56 am] |
| [ | Status Effect |
| | exhausted | ] |
| [ | Theme Song |
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I just want to make a video game. Yeah, I enjoy cooking, but this isn't what I'm cut out for when it comes to careers. Ask me to make a family dinner, or a buncha stuff for a party, but don't throw 120 different meals at me and expect me to do it in 30 minutes to an hour correctly.
Funny, my horoscope today said that I should stick to the plans for the future I made in the past. I made them because they were best, why did that change?
Of course, now, if I were to up and leave Morgan's, Blake and Niki would be like "Blargh!". Will wouldn't mind; he plans on leaving himself once he has money to pursue his future in medicine.
All I need is money and oppurtunity to pursue my game design future... I need to make up more of those game design docs for my game ideas, keep them there.. just in case.
I'm so tired. Everyone be warned, just as I warned my family; sunday is my day! I'm not doing anything I don't want to! I may very well sleep for 16 hours! Bite me!
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 22nd, 2005|09:00 pm] |
Good news; father is good. Operation went well. All's well. Comes home sunday or monday. Woot!
I finally got the nerve up to ask Amy out. She said yes, after making me sweat.
Woot!
No more good news.
Bad news; I'm tired. Woot! |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 20th, 2005|12:37 pm] |
a real update.
I work everyday this week except friday, when I drive me, my brother (who is home from florida), and my sister to Philly to visit my dad in the hospital.
Also, my car luck is terrible. Battery died in my car the other day an hour before I had to be at work. Woot! Got that fixed though.
People at work usually wanna hang out and invited me out last night, but I said no. It just... I dunno. Don't like large social gatherings.
Six Flags on sunday. Birthday present for sister.
September 1st to 5th, I have plane tickets. I'm going to Florida. To visit my friends... :)
That last one is probably the best news in the freaking world.
Weee. |
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[Jul. 16th, 2005|11:09 am] |
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All I want is one day. I don't want to move... think... do anything... I just want to lie still and pretend I don't exist. Just one day. |
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